26 May 2006

I realize more and more how hard it is for me to "do superficial." I am so used to diving on the deep end of the pool - discussing esoteric spiritual concepts, confronting personal demons, inquiring into cherished stories and thoughts... That anymore these days it's hard to just "chat."

I went for a walk today with another mom - and it struck me half way through, "I'm bored." Not that she was a bad person - she is a very pleasant person - it's just that even now I can't remember a thing she said. I thought how much cooler my walk could have been just looking at the neighborhood and enjoying the silence.

It will be interesting to see how the journey continues....

2 comments:

kate said...

i think i am the same way, but i try REALLY hard to relate to others in a more "surface" why, otherwise i'm lonely. it's hard to find folks you can go deep with, isn't it?

katie said...

When I first moved to the island I felt like I was constantly having small talk with people. I suppose it was laying the groundwork for future relationships but I was so sick of spewing out the same facts about myself and asking the same questions back. Four years later I have a few really strong friendships out of those first conversations. Maybe that mom feels the same way and is just responding how she thinks she should. Maybe she is bored out of her skull with it all too :) I found that one day when I blurted out in a moms' group "What did everyone do BEFORE kids?" I got some heavier insight into who these women really were. Good luck, hopefully you find someone to share your thoughts and ideas with.